perfect relationship :(

you would think that when you are happy in a relationship you wont be hurt anymore. but as one of my classmates said in our intercom class, "all good things come to an end".

this specifies that when you are happy, it cannot last long, even if you try so hard. i made a mistake of giving my everything to this girl who ended up hurting me deep down inside! although not physically. i wish she didn't do that because i am so deeply in love with her, until now, even though we broke up months ago.

there is no such thing as a perfect relationship. the only thing you can do is to do your best to keep holding on to that relationship. whatever happens, happens for a reason, if you are unable to make your relationship work, maybe that means that you are not made for each other.

i thought i could easily move on. then i realized that i miss her so much when i am in crowds and sitting alone in my room.

i don't know why but she just keeps on popping into my mind for no reason at all. just this morning when i woke up, i was about to take a bath when her face popped up in my mind. i thought that i was not thinking of her anymore. well, i guess i thought wrong. i hope that we didn't break up. to think that just last march to April me and that girl were so happy with each others company. but now, we are just, acquaintances. i should act, as i told her, as if we never even met each other in person. i told her that we should act like JUST textmates. i didn't think that i would be the one who would have a hard time forgetting her as my girlfriend.

i am now, lonely but i have a girlfriend who i love,but am afraid that what i am feeling is just infatuation. :(

i am really sorry if that were to happen, i wouldn't want to hurt people just because i am me..

i am sad because i thought we had a lifetime relationship. i guess i was wrong. hm.. but i am happy i had that relationship with her. i learned a lot! hm..

i thank her for that and i hate her for what she did to me. huhu.

*sob sob sob*