i am not MOVING!..

i love my school, i love my friends, i love my subjects!

why does everybody else seem to know what is best for me? isn't that supposed to be my job of knowing?

i REFUSE to transfer to another school! argh!

i really don't! i don't like it one bit! i am so pissed off! i love everything now! what else can i say? hm. i didn't decide for this! 'they' decided for ME! argh!

my MOTHER wants me to take an exam for Malayan college! they want me to transfer schools just because they don't think that i am pushing myself top hard. being in a trimester school and all that! crap!

me don't want to move! :'(

i hope i don't transfer!

..gone with the wind..

gone with the wind..
gone with the wind..
gone with the wind..

everything and everyone dies. its just that when you die, you leave a certain memory to all your friends who have been with you through good and bad times during your life.

last November 9(Friday), a friend of my father visited us at our house. knowing that he was dead and all, he still went to give our family their condolences. upon remembering their good times in the ship where they worked most of their lives, he began to be teary eyed. it suddenly struck my consciousness that my father was in fact no longer with us. he is in a better place. i think that it is just now that i am realizing that he died.

i did not have the chance to cry like my mother for my father, i was not able to because a lot of people in my family are now counting on me to be the man of the house. being the man of the house i would be responsible of the appliances, cleaning, fixing, and maintaining them. nobody knows how much i want to cry. i just haven't had the chance to talk to anybody about this because all of my friends are happy. i don't want to be the reason why they would become sad.

now that my 'sadness' is over, i can concentrate on the more important stuff.

now that i got that out of my chest, i can breathe easily. thanks for reading my "emo" blog.

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what do young people think is enjoyable to watch.

"Martyr Nyebera" by Kamikazee


"Ambisyoso" by Kamikazee


"Chiksilog" by Kamikazee


there is a reason why i chose this videos by Kamikazee. it not just because of the fact that they were sung by the same band/singers. i specifically chose them because of the songs and its videos. as you can see in the presented videos, they are enjoyable to watch because it has a funny story accompanying the songs. that is the reasons why i chose this videos.

"an analysis of selected videos of kamikazee uncovers how various visual techniques may be used to catch the viewing publics eye."

written above is my thesis statement.

the title of my analysis paper would be: "visual hooks in some music videos."

resources:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=Xne0LmwuWQ0
http://youtube.com/watch?v=6QTtC-hgtB0
http://youtube.com/watch?v=0opKAl_9Glc

me + emo = this blog

hm..*thinking...* another blog for all of you to read.. (who would ever want to read my work anyway? haha.. full of crap and things..)

me is emo.. happy, hyper emo..

i was thinking a while ago about three words.. "i love you" three very strong words.. who wouldnt want to hear this when it is coming from your lifetime crush? i surely would want that.. just like what happened this morning, my ex-girlfriend was asking me for another chance, saying that she will change and all that crap.. in a relationship you can only do 3 things: (1) love unconditionally, (2) give more than what you have, and (3)expect nothing in return..

now tell me, who has given up almost everything to his/her love one. talking about a partner in life and not your relatives. i sure have.. whoever knows my past wouldnt contradict to what i am saying.. i have sacrificed for the one i love for so long that i forgot how many times i cried in bed, my pillow all wet, my nose was runny, my eyes where as big as baseballs, as a result of crying..

why the hell am i reminiscing in the past.. past is past.. as i say.. it will never be forgotten but you can surely try!..


let me now concentrate on my future.. hm.. let me see... i am a 17 year old person(yes, i know, i am old!). ive done something bad yesterday (november 5, 2007), i was being emo in front of my friends. now my friends know how i am when i am not myself. a lot of them know me, all of them would say that i am a very jolly person. a very understanding person.. no wonder why many fall hard.. hu hu hu... changing the topic.. i like my bestest best friend right now..

her name... hm... *&%!@..secret!. hehe..

oohh.. pretty clouds... hehe.. favorite answer.. favorite question.. "inlove kba alexis??"

WTF=what the f*ck

ehehe.. weee.. me is hyper.. me is also sad.. buhu for me..

"love you angela.." oops... crap i said it.. hehe

me die...
me hate myself...
me not wanted...
me hated by everyone...
me is emo...
me is lonely...
me is hurt...
me is happy???
me is very much annoying...
me not missed my anyone...
me is ME!..
huhu
sorry poh sa mga masasaktan ah.. told you.. me is EMO!.. hehe.. sorry ulit.. do not take this seriously.. thanx...

me is EMO no more..
hope nobody reads and takes it seriously..
hehe
hm..
bbye emo mode..

NSTP camping...

normally this blog entry is about the recent happenings in our NSTP class. i never thought that camping can be a lot of fun. ha ha ha. i guess, i never experienced the things that happened in our camping. by the way, a lot of things happened. a lot that none of you may know. he he he.

a lot of things changed. i think one of the changes would be the 'opening' of my third eye, so to say. you want to know what happened? well, sorry for you, but until the moon turns to cheese, I'm not gonna tell. just that the opening of my third eye was a blast. who would've thought that a lot of things where happening under our noses and we don't even know what they are.

as i told in my earlier paragraphs, a lot happened during camp. i was told by a friend of mine that what i am doing was wrong, so i started to change the way i think about things in life. do unto others what you want others to do unto you. this statement used to be nothing to me. i always think that, i do things for others because i want to, and not because i wanted them to do it to me too. i just found out that my friends treat me the way i treat them, and, sad to say, i have been very neglectful about that. SORRY! i am sorry for my Friends who never fail to help me with my problems. Bosconians, i love you all. and for my friends in La Salle now, thank you very much.. and, i love you as much as i love my bosconian friends. (cheesy, but it is true). Nicol, Zyrille, Myco, thanks for everything you have done for me.

i learned a lot of things too in this camp. little about saint La Salle but a lot about my perspective in life. friends can become best friends in a matter of minutes, friends can become enemies, people can act like a fool in front of other people, people try and pretend that they are your friend but in reality, they are not.


bitin, my Saturday night was completely ruined by a person who i think has never been loved before. poor man, but what are we to do but follow the people in charge of our 'well-being'. funny how other people think you are doing something when you are not doing anything at all. accusation is never a good thing. i try to laugh about a lot of things in life, and i think that i would just want to laugh about this, too. even though i really am taking it seriously.

amazing, isn't it, that even how much tired you are, you still find time with your friends to laugh about something in the past. like what we did last Saturday night, before it was cut short.

all in all, the camping of NSTP was great. especially the river trekking. that was fun. plus the 'ghost-hunting', even though it was never part of the real camp agenda. ha ha. that is the reason why i feel so tired and sleepy. but, even though it was tiring, staying up and all that, i wont regret the things i did in camp.

this is already a long blog entry so maybe I'll stop, or maybe not. he he he. stopping..


*resisting the urge to type more things*:)

comments please...

taking it off...(masks)

'nothing is the matter with me.' he said giving out a faint sigh.'

'are you sure that nothing is bothering you?'

'yes! honestly, i am not sad. i am happy!'

this is an example of two friends talking over lunch or drinking soft drinks in the cafeteria. what else would you ask for when your friend says 'honestly...'. nobody in the world would know if he/she is saying the truth or the person is just lying to you to mislead you.except maybe if that friend of yours already knows you well enough to know that he/she is just pretending.

if everybody just told the truth about their real status in life, if they are truly happy or just pretending to be, their would be no web of lies. am i right if i say that almost everyone has lied at least ten times in their whole existence in this world. be it a white lie or not. in case you don't know, a white lie is a lie that you say to a friend when you don't want to hurt his/her feelings. it may seem like it isn't a lie but still, it is a lie.

if nobody told lies, nobody would have misunderstandings. don't get me wrong, i have told my share of lies. more than a lot of you. but, enough about me, i want you to know that no matter how much you lie, the truth will still come out. however deep you have kept it. if you don't believe me, think of the past things you have done, what you have told your friends. the stuff you boast about, are they all true? nonetheless no one can say that you are lying or not. we discussed that in our intro com subject. unless you perform 'leakages'. at least now i know that i am truly learning something.

now, about the masks earlier in this blog entry, i mentioned it because masks is very common nowadays to young people. you wear different kinds of masks. when you are with friends, you wear a mask, when your with relatives you also wear a mask. nowadays, masks are becoming our faces. sad to say, but nobody is being true to himself or herself.

now, masks are very helpful when pretending. let me use my earlier example for closing my blog entry.

'something is the matter with me. but i cant quite point my finger to it.' accompanied by a big sigh.

'you should talk to a friend, if you don't want to talk to me. at least you trust me as a friend to tell me the truth.'

'anyway, thanks.'

*after some weeks*

'hi there. thanks for your advice the other week. i appreciated it a lot'

'oh, your welcome, my pleasure to help you. did you get to solve your problem?'

'actually, i did talk to a friend, and she told me to just be true to my feelings.'

'ow, it was a love problem, i see.'

'and now, being true to myself, and not wanting to mislead you to the wrong thing, here i am saying i love you to you.'

...

Family Problems

wow. it's been a while since i got to write on my blog spot acct. ha ha ha. anyway, it is time for me to try and write something here. it is about my assignment in English one. well, here goes nothing and everything at the same time.

a lot can happen to a family. they could have other family problems; therefore, causing their own problems. having this problems can cause a lot of things that you don't or wouldn't like. for example, having a misunderstanding between family members can lead to the divorce of the parents. on the other hand, if their relationship lasts longer than that of the others, they might just be the perfect match for each other.

having problems with your parent's parents can lead to an angry family; nevertheless, if you avoid in helping your grand parents as a family, it would still cause some problems. however you try and help, it cannot be helped to have an argument amongst your parents and their parents.

another problem that you might encounter is that of your dad or mom may be having an affair with another guy or woman. the only effect i can see is that for your mom and your dad to call off their marriage, unless, of course they find a way to stop cheating on their spouse or husband.